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@Rotten_Rc @retardwriting It's so sad when love turns toxic

@Rotten_Rc bcz i can

@Rotten_Rc Thanks
But you didn't give out?
Like it wasn't your fault??
if I understood what you said right right now
Like we did some things wrong but in the end it was me who made us end

@Rotten_Rc But I did too many things wrong so I thought it would be better if you weren't with me
Of course I wanted you to stay with me but I couldn't change myself enough

@Rotten_Rc I just tried to do what I thought was good for you
That's why I didn't tell you if I felt shit sometimes
That's why I started to push you away from me because I thought you would be happier without me
Being with you was the best time in my life

@Rotten_Rc Yea
I lost hope in myself
I didn't think I could improve
I always wanted to get better for you but I think I started to think that I couldn't do that

@Rotten_Rc I'm sorry I promised you that
If I hadn't fallen in love with you I never would have broken it

@Rotten_Rc I know
I probably won't improve
It will probably get even worse
That's exactly why I tried to get you away from me
I didn't want to hurt you but I did exactly that by trying not to
That's my problem
I want to be close to people but I don't want them to be close to me

@Rotten_Rc I won't and didn't forget what we said we wanted to do
I can't forget that
And I thought I understood you
But I didn't
I've tried to like what In my eyes was helping you but I only made it worse with my backwards logic
I know what I did wrong

@Rotten_Rc I know that I did it
I did that subconsciously
I wanted to be with you
That's why I pushed you away
It doesn't make sense but I wanted to be close to you while keeping me away from you because I felt like I would just hurt you if you were close to me

@Rotten_Rc I know you don't want to hear that
But I can't think of myself any other way
I try to convince myself that I can be a good friend
But I'm just way too toxic for that
I ruin things by trying to not be a bad person
I do the wrong things when I want to do the right things

@Rotten_Rc If I get from others it makes me feel like a burden
And if I feel like I'm not good for someone I push them away
That's why I didn't always talk about what was wrong
I was scared that I might have pushed you away
I didn't want that so I just shut up when I didn't feel good

@Rotten_Rc I know you didn't do it like I did
And it wasn't my intention to say that
I ignored you often I know that
I know that I was an awful person during our relationship
I tried to be the best I could
But I can't always be good I'm too awful of a person

@Rotten_Rc I know
But I tried my best to improve myself and stop ignoring you when I felt like shit
I ignored you because I thought if I talked to you I might say things that I would regret later because if I feel awful I get angry at myself and everyone else even if they want to help

@Rotten_Rc No
I didn't mean it like that
You're twisting my words
I know what you did for me while we were together
And I appreciate
But sometimes you also did the same things I did
I won't say I didn't deserve it but we should have talked instead of just being like "well that happened"

@Rotten_Rc I had my phone taken so often because I messaged you
I always was the one who had to give his phone away during school time
It wasn't nice getting comments because of that
But I still did my best finding time to write you in school
Even if that meant I would ruin reputation

@Rotten_Rc I know what I did wrong
And I apologized for it countless times
But you didn't always respond in one hour
You ignored me for multiple days too
I know I was way worse
And I won't deny that I'm not a good person
And I did the exact same thing in school

@Rotten_Rc Don't act like you didn't ignore me too or are better than me in that regard
At least I didn't do it to hurt you
And I explained why I changed my mind during the time we were together to you multiple times

@Rotten_Rc This sounds cringe asf
But there are some things I haven't even told you in the time we knew each other
I can be a very different person than what you or for that matter anyone knows

@Rotten_Rc If I put my mind to it I can ignore myself
So I'm pretty sure I wouldn't panic nor get overwhelmed
But I don't know that for sure since I won't just go around stabbing random people

@Rotten_Rc Ok say why I would have a panic attack from that then?
And I don't mind an argument
We aren't together anymore nor friends apparently so I can live with that

@Rotten_Rc No?
You know me for over a year now
You should really know better

@Rotten_Rc Erm no??
Like actually no
I'm pretty confident that I would've done better
I just don't want to

@Rotten_Rc As if your opinion would change if I didn't delete my comments lol

@Rotten_Rc Bcz you've been brainwashed beyond repair

@Rotten_Rc ur head fucked up from edits,People should go out and socialize, that's the normal.

@Rotten_Rc You have a point lol 😂😂 well hopefully things work out for you man

@Rotten_Rc I understand. The world is loud and you just want some peace and quiet

@Rotten_Rc If people deserve to die, you also deserve to die, you know that, right?

@Rotten_Rc So you just wanna get away from black people? because honestly same

@Rotten_Rc At least you dont have many gangs/black people nearby you. It could always be worse

@Rotten_Rc Rural Wisconsin was pretty cool last time I went there. Nice people and fun things to do

@Rotten_Rc What about you why do you want to leave?

@Rotten_Rc I'll return someday in the future but yeah I'm leaving

@Rotten_Rc Dunno Canada or Mexico or something close by and I'm going to stay there for a year or so

@Rotten_Rc Yup, I have plans to leave in a month even though I lived here all my life. Excited.

@Rotten_Rc NE Illinois. Where do you wanna go?

@Rotten_Rc Where are you from?

@Rotten_Rc Same time zone as me

@Rotten_Rc I don't understand why he did something like that, do you have any information? My guess is that he wanted to prove himself because he was excluded from the white boys and he chose something like this, is it true?

@Rotten_Rc Do u know him ?

@Rotten_Rc What happened?
Couldn't watch it

@Rotten_Rc @chudmountain @SlashVril blud

@Rotten_Rc That looks like a dwarf, not a child but I couldnt care less what happens to them

@Rotten_Rc Well I've heard her name but not much else

@Rotten_Rc Idk who that is
And I don't really care, she should be shot

@Rotten_Rc I posted all I wrote today now if you want to read it btw

@Rotten_Rc Just a story
Idrk where it leads yet
It's a bit inspired by SAO
I'll post what I have written today when I stop
It's not much yet though and I'm probably going to edit some things in the future